hideout

just wna be in fetal position forever until I expire. do humans expire like food? do we rot from the inside out or from the outside in? been feeling very unsettled and jumpy these past few weeks. not sure why. it's like an itch deep in my bones. I just can't pinpoint what exactly is making me feel this way. I don't know. I don't know. why can't I talk to people. why do I want to curl up in a ball peel off all my skin scratch my eyelids till they bleed cut up all my hair pluck out all my nails and take apart every part of my body every single time I open my mouth to try to talk to someone. I will go to bed now.

xx